athleticism, two ways

numerous humiliation rituals within

i liked how Lena Dunham described writing on a regular cadence

Writing at a particular cadence is amazing for the creative muscle. That’s what writing TV taught me: to be athletic and not precious, since you have to grind out an episode whether you feel it or not.

sure yea i’ve seen benjamin franklin’s schedule and this isn’t new alpha but really what moved me here was the word athletic…

it happens to be a quality i value, in addition to other things…

however…

for example, the time i went surfing for a second date with this guy in nyc (he had a car, i had just moved to new york, i missed surfing) and then he tried to kiss me in the mf water… harrowing…

speaking of fear in surfing, last week i was sitting in the water on my board, stiff with fear, theoretically, of falling and hurting myself. i eventually went for it, ate shit, everything was OK. but it was too late–by sitting there so stiff for so long, i had locked my back into flexion, and i realized when i woke up the next day that something was wrong.

my back still hurts. not trying can be more painful than just trying and failing. a lesson i must keep learning over and over and over and over.

over and out 🫡

my polycule 👍

not a date, just helping my neighbor get his wetsuit over his shoulders. this is what “community” looks like btw…